Am thinking of gray, of cold, of chills. Am listening to Manitoba. Am reading What is the What and am re-evaluating what “tough” means. Have lit a candle. Have made the bed. Am wearing a skirt over jeans and a soft blue new t-shirt. Have decided that when I’m too tired to speak to people, I shouldn’t try to force it. Am wondering whether synthetic hormones like The Pill would make me more or less crazy. Have had four cups of coffee today. Am sure that coffee is bad for me.