Random thoughts: Things are good. How long will good things last this time? And why do I torture myself with wondering? I used to be much worse… obsessively wondering. I’m a control freak at heart — a closet perfectionist — and not being able to control the world, the future and those around me always put me on edge. I’m a lot more accepting of whatever comes along now… but still, I wonder. Mostly it’s just that I get rattled easily by change. And I always think that if I can spot change coming, I can prepare for it and handle it better. This is probably not true.